A child’s recollection of the Warsaw Uprising 1944
Translated by Krystyna Olas
On
the first of August, 1944, I was eight years old. It was during the World
War II. I lived in German-occupied Warsaw, till 1939 Poland’s capital. It was a
sunny afternoon. Crouching, I played in a puddle left by a brief rain. I
heard a sound not unlike that of nails being hammered and got up. I saw an
elegant man fire his rifle. The end of the barrel was odd looking, like a
funnel, and from it, flames shot out. He stood next to the neighboring
house fence, slender and tall. He wore khaki plus fours, and on his arm,
his right one I think, was a white and red armband. I didn’t have a chance
to see anything more, for right there my mother ran up and took me into the
cellar of the condominium in which we lived. In the basement stood
primitive benches saved by the janitor from the siege of Warsaw at the
beginning of the war in 1939, upon which our neighbors already sat. They
were saying that the Uprising was beginning, that Warsaw would be freed by the
resistance fighters, that the Germans would flee, and that then the Bolsheviks
would come, bringing the Red Army.
About
the Red Army I had heard half a year earlier, in
the winter, while I was playing with my lead soldiers. Andy, who was two
year older, told me then, that it was thus called because all the
soldiers wore red uniforms. I didn’t believe him: the lead soldiers I had
wore green uniforms and brown boots. The SS men in nearby barracks wore
black. Soldiers in red had to also have red boots, and no respecting
soldier would wear such boots. Therefore, Andy was trying to trick me. When
I told him so, he pinched my nose painfully. But now, adults were talking
of the Red Army. They said that when it came, “what’s yours will be mine.” What’s
more, they reasoned that the Red Army marched without shoes. This solved
my problem. In red uniforms, but barefoot - that was believable.
My
mother was very upset: she murmured to herself under her breath. At
that time, this wasn’t common for her. I heard, “ It’s crazy, they are
stupid; they’ll destroy the city, everyone will die...”
I
wasn’t sure just what was “stupid,” but I didn’t feel
it safe to ask. I had imprinted in my memory the vision of the tall man,
and I was sure I’d never forget him. I knew that every shot from his rifle
was purposeful, and I wanted to go see him triumphant, but with my mother I
wasn’t going to have that chance. She was in a bad mood, and one could
easily get it.
I
never saw that elegant man again. The next
day, another man, also a resistance fighter, came to the basement, wearing the
tell-tale white-red band on his arm. He was shorter, and not as stately.He
brought two carrots per each child and told us that Warsaw was almost free, and
that walking on the streets was unsafe, for the time being. He said that
because of this, we should dig a passage from our basement to the basement
of our neighbors. I thought this was a great idea.
A
day or two later, my mother decided that since she felt there was less
shooting, we could move back into our house, but only into the kitchen, since
it was hidden from view. Once, when we were sitting in the kitchen , an
old friend, Romek Hartman, came by, and it turned out that he, too, was a
resistance fighter. He wore a thick, wide belt, and pinned to that belt
was a grenade. My mother was very puzzled by the fact that Romek was a
resistance fighter, because he was barely three years older than my elder
brother Maciek, and he was only twelve. I asked him if he had a
revolver, because I wanted him to show it to me, but he told me that the only
way to get a gun was off a dead enemy. He added that in a matter of days
he was to get a second grenade, but that he couldn’t let me hold the one he had
, because regulations forbid it. My mother got upset again. At that
point, it was very easy to upset my mother, so it was worthwhile to watch out.
Now
I knew what the elegant man had been doing the first day of the uprising. Not
more than 50 meters from our home there were SS barracks. The elegant man
and other resistance fighters were trying to overrun the barracks. The
barracks were not captured, and many of the fighters were killed. I could
not imagine that the man had died.
Those
barracks had interested me long before. I had seen the SS men, (we never
called them soldiers), while they were practicing throwing grenades in front of
the building. The entrance to the barracks was blocked off by a crossbar. A
guard sat in a booth painted with black and white chevrons. I avoided
walking on the sidewalk in front of the barracks; I was afraid of the SS men on
the streets as well. However, shortly before the uprising, curiosity had
became stronger than fear. In each corner of the barracks there had been
bunkers being built. I had picked the corner farthest from the gate, and
for hours I had watched the masons. The constructing of a bunker is easy,
as long as the building has a basement. One moves the bricks in the corner
of the building - one meter up and one meter over from each edge. A new,
extended corner is built, under which there is room for the soldiers to stand while they
shoot from the slits cut in the sides of the fortification. This was the
type of bunkers built for the SS men. After the masons had finished, I no
longer went near the barracks - I was afraid that SS men were watching me from
the bunkers.
At
some time during the uprising, we moved permanently into the basement, or until
the Germans fled, at any rate. It seemed to me that all the residents of
our building had moved into the cellar - at least all of our acquaintance’s
children were down there. My brother, mother and I had a place in the
middle of the basement’s hallway. Sitting on our cot, I could see the
large gas pipe coming out of a hole in the wall on my left, going along the
basement’s ceiling, and entering the wall through another hole on my right. Almost
every evening, a giant gray rat would come out of the hole on the left, slink
along the entire length of pipe and disappear in the hole on the right. The
way he moved was very stern and determined. The rat quiclky became a big
attraction for us, one for which we waited every evening. Moreover, the
rat was a challenge: we wanted to stop him. For this, Jacek Patycki
thought to set soldiers in the rat’s way. We started with a lone
infantryman in a green uniform and brown boots. The rat didn’t even
notice. Without breaking stride, he knocked our soldier to the ground and
marched onward.
Every
day in the evening a Mass was held. The manager’s office, which was on the
first floor, only a few feet from the basement entrance, served as the chapel. We
sang pious hymns, mostly sad ones. Evenings were therefore full: first the
rat, and then the sermon. Occasionally, though, the rat would be late, and
we’d have to go to mass without seeing him.
One
day the SS men herded us onto a neighboring courtyard, where, already, on
the dead grass, the people from the building between us and the barracks sat. From
a speaker hung on a pole boomed Hitler’s orders, in German, and after that some
man spoke Polish with an odd accent. The edict stated that Warsaw was to
be destroyed, so that not one stone remained on top of another.During the
speech the neighboring apartment house, the one between us and the barracks,
started to burn People started to cry and shout. My mother said that
soon they would ignite our home.Mr. Grusza said no, because the Germans
had forced us out without anything, while the neighbors had been allowed to
gather up their things and take all that they could carry into the courtyard.He
was sure they would not burn our house. He was right, and in a little
while we were allowed to return to our home.
The
rat still won over our army. Even three officers could not overcome him. One became
missing in action during a battle - he fell from the pipe into the hole in the
wall. A few days later a second soldier was killed in a skirmish - his
base stand broke off.
The
adults said that there would be starvation, and continuously spoke only of
food and sustenance. One day Mr. Winter came upon the idea to gather the
tomatoes in the main courtyard, which had been planted before the uprising. The
problem with this was that the courtyard was within range of SS fire from the
barracks. Mr. Grusza said that even Germans would not fire on children. I
don’t know why it turned out to be me, but in any case Mr. Winter gave me a
white flag and told me to go gather tomatoes on that little plot of land. I
didn’t argue then, but as I readied to go out, I began to be afraid. Some
said it was best that I crawl, others that I should go out waving the white
flag. I don’t remember what was decided, but it didn’t really matter,
because I got about three steps out the door and immediately escaped back
inside. I told Mr. Winter that there were no tomatoes there anymore. Mr.
Winter looked at me, and then at the plot, and said,
“You’re
right, there really aren’t any.”
To
this Mrs. Niczman
cried, “What are you talking about? It is completely red over there with
tomatoes!”
Mr.
Winter repeated, “There are no tomatoes on that p;ot,” louder this
time.
Mrs.
Niczman backed off quickly, saying, “You’re
right, there aren’t any.”
I
was surprised that the adults agreed with me so
readily.
The
rat continued winning the war. Our flank of
grenadiers was decimated. The commanding officer was crushed after falling
from the pipe under the heel of one of the adults.
The
basement was lighted by carbide lamps. Before the uprising, the Germans
had turned on the electricity for a few hours a day. Now the electric
lighting had stopped completely, ever since the beginning of the uprising. Normally,
for thrift, only one lamp was burning, flickering and hissing, and the height
of the fire was dependent on the current production of gas. That night two
lamps were burning, and, also, Mr. Winter had put in more carbide than
normally, so they would light the basement longer. The reason for this was
Mr. Zurman, who having recently sneaked over to our building from the downtown
district of Warsaw, had tidings from that other part of city to tell, and
everyone wanted to hear everything without interruption. The streets of
that area were covered with barricades, so as to hinder the attacks of German
tanks. The barricades consisted of overturned trams, cars, pieces of
walls, street curbs, bricks, and even furniture. I couldn’t imagine
knocking over a tram, but I was sure the resistance fighters knew how to do it.
A
barricade: exactly what we needed to beat the rat. If our army was behind
a barricade, the rat would have no chance whatsoever. My attention got
divided: with one ear hearing Jacek telling me that for the rat barricade he
would give me his wooden toy tram, with the other ear listening to Mr. Zurman
saying that German bombs went right through the roofs and floors of buildings
and exploded in the basement. At that very moment a carbide lamp on my
left side exploded. In an enclosed space like that basement an actually
small explosion gave the impression of a huge detonation. The top half of
the lamp had leaped up into the air, turned upside-down and imbedded itself in
the ceiling so that it looked like a duck’s bill pecking through to the
basement. Then things started happening fast and semingly simultaneously. Mrs.
Dobiecka, pointing with her right hand at the duck’s bill, shrieked,
“A
bomb, ahhhhhh!”
At
the same time her left hand tried to plug both her ears in preparation for the
bomb’s explosion. Mr. Zurman straightened up and commanded,
“Don’t
panic, just everyone
get down!”
With
his head held high
and his mind concentrated, Mr. Zurman gave the impression that he could control
every situation. Mrs. Smolinska didn’t notice this impression, because she
had covered her head with a blanket that before now had always laid in her lap. From
under the blanket a muffled,
“Hail
Mary, full of grace...”
could be heard.
The
shadow of Mr. Zurman on the basement wall told me, “Trust and obey your
leader.”
I
yelled, “Yes Sir!” and dropped to the floor, never taking my eyes of the bomb. Piotrek
said,
“Sir!
Sir! I’m not allowed to drop to the floor in these clothes!”
Jacek,
still holding the wooden tram in his hand, started to make his way toward the
lamp saying,
“I
have to see the bomb!”
By
chance, Mr. Kowal,
who had, on Mr. Zurman’s word dived beneath a bunk, was in his path. Jacek
tripped over Mr. Kowal outstretched leg, and dropped the wooden tram. The
tram arched through the air and landed in the small of Mrs. Smolinska’s back. Mrs.
Smolinska threw the blanket back and stood up screamed,
“I’m
hurt! The shrapnel
got me!”
Mr.
Zurman shouted,
“Medics! The
injured must go to the infirmary!”
“Sir,
we don’t have
an infirmary,” I volunteered.
Mr.
Kowal rose from under the bunk and, shaking off the
dust, said coldly,
“Mr.
Zurman, not only is there no infirmary, there is
also no bomb. Perhaps you’re hallucinating.”
Mrs.
Smolinska, rubbing her offended back, glared
at Mr. Zurman and said,
“This
place is crawling with subversives waiting for a chance to hit someone in the
back.” After a moments thought, she added, “Some of them are easy to spot: they
are always instigating panic.”
From
then on the kids
thought carbide lamps were better than electricity any way.
The
next day we built
an anti-rat barricade. The main body of Jacek’s tram construed the center
of the barricade, while the undercarriage and the wheels blocked the rest of
the pipe. The rat came up to the barricade, climbed up onto it, and found
only the ceiling. Without hurrying, he turned around, climbed down, and
returned to the hole from which he had appeared. We had won.
The
next morning we saw that the barricade was destroyed. The
rat had returned during the night and chewed through the tram’s side by
widening its windows.
Continued next week.
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